Classes start today. I couldn't get any sleep last night, so I called in today. I think I was just worried about school. I have been working on my online classes thus far. Have most of the readings done and have been posting to the discussion boards. It is still too early in the week to be able to contribute more than that, but since I already have a 4 pg paper due next week, I think it is good that I get a headstart.

So last week, I made a delicious chicken enchilada.

Ingredients:
Chicken Breast
Can of Enchilada Sauce
Green Chili
Fiesta Blend Shredded Cheese
Flour or Corn Tortillas

Cook chicken breast in crock pot. Preheat oven to 350 degrees. When easy to shred, take out and throw into a frying pan with half of the enchilada sauce. When sauce is cooked in, place chicken on flour or corn tortilla, top with some leftover enchilada sauce, green chili, and cheese. If using a corn tortilla, cover with another corn tortilla and bake until cheese is melted. if using a flour tortilla, roll up and put another smaller serving of enchilada sauce and cheese on top. Bake until cheese is melted.

Yummy:)

Things have definitely been looking up lately.

I still, of course, miss my aunt. I always will. I am still angry with God and having trouble talking to him right now for taking her away.

But... things are looking up.

Cody and I are moved into our house. It's been a dream. We aren't completely settled, but we are slowly getting there. Cody's brother has been helping us update a few electrical things. Upstairs, we put a new fan in the master, will be adding recessed lights to the hallway, the 2 spare bedrooms did not have any lights in them, so we installed two fan/lights in each of those rooms, we also replaced both of the bathroom fixtures. Downstairs we replaced the front and back outside lights, put of new blinds in the living/dining room, and installed a new microwave. My test garden for this year is doing better than I thought and it has been so nice to grill every weekend again.

It's amazing that with our mortgage pmnt, tax pmnt, and insurance pmnt, we still pay less each month than we did for our apartment! I guess the 3.75% interest rate is definitely not hurting.

I also let Cody buy a Toyota pickup. It's older, but it is in great condition.

The Monday after we moved into our place, I started my job for DCMA. I love it so far. My boss was already talking to me about moving me up a pay grade within the next couple of months.I have also learned that I am in the perfect office to work for. In other offices, their student employees are not allowed to handle contracts... well, I have a contract with my name on it already. Pretty awesome!

School is going okay, finals are tomorrow. I need this week vacation before the next set of classes so I can refocus. We had so much going on in the last month that I started slacking off and won't be surprised if I only get all B's because of it. I have been sick for the past week and a half and missed out on the last 2 weeks of classes because of it.

Anyway, can't complain, life is good.

I feel like I just need to vent. Get stuff off my chest.

Can 2009 be any worse than 2008? Ever since Cody and I got married, our lives have been filled with one tragedy after another.... were we correct when we used to joke that God would get angry when we got married? It sure as hell feels like it.

I think I need to break this down. Less than 1 month after we were married, Cody's stepfather committed suicide, forcing us to use all of our savings to help his mom. 6 months to the day after the stepfathers death, Cody's mother committed suicide. It took us almost 1 yr to fix the house and get it up for sale, spending all of our free weekends in what I call "Hell". We are still in the midst of finishing up the financial stuff. About 6 months after Cody's mom passed, my dad had a nervous breakdown and all I can do is watch him get worse and be there for him when he needs me. Just last month, my grandfather passed away, I couldn't go to his funeral because of school, and I found out that my dad was basically disowned in the will. For the last semester, Cody has been in a class taught by the worst teacher I could ever imagine and I struggle watching him try so hard, yet get no help from this monster. Two days ago, I got laid off. So if you think that I am just feeling sorry for myself, why don't you fuck off.

The sad thing is, that throughout this time, only one major positive thing has happened, and that was me getting into grad school at a top six business school in the US. My parents didn't even have faith enough in me to believe I could get in.

I am tired, I am angry, but through it all, I refuse to get depressed, I refuse to give up, I refuse to let anyone thing Cody and I can't do it.

Fuck everyone who ever doubted me, even for a second. Fuck everyone that thinks they are better than me, because in my mind, as long as I have Cody... you ain't got shit. And most of all, FUCK SIEMENS.

I busted my fucking ass for that company. I took a barely there job and turned into a position that not even I could keep up with. I am really going to enjoy hearing about their struggles with my position. I knew how to do my bosses job and the receptionists job, but did they even take the time to learn how to do mine? No. When they realize how big I made my position, how much work was expected of me from our entire district as I continued to raise the standards on that job, they'll realize that they aren't as good as they think they are. They will realize that without me, they won't be able to please even 1/4 of the amount of people I could. They won't be as welcome into our "outcast" office as much as I was. They will realize that they can't, but I could.

And what kind of company lays off a women who is about to give birth (NO I AM NOT TALKING ABOUT ME... just to set the record straight)!!!!!!!! Why do that? Because you don't want to pay the maternity leave? You guys are jerks and I hope all of management (with the exclusion of one or two managers) fall flat on their asses.

Oh and one last thing you assholes! I am so valuable that I already have an interview lined up and I have only been laid off for 2 days.